I see you joking, hoping no one can tell how you're hiding behind that smile I know so well. Take a step back. Get another perspective. You might see things a little bit different. People these days get too obsessive with the assessment of themselves through the eyes of those around them. The mayhem begins when fear and pride come, walking side by side, and invite themselves in. Then you contemplate, formulate ideas that aid the hate. This hate is an attack on your slate. Trying to create marks forming you into a work made of lies and pain. They tell you you're not worth it, drawing light to your past mistakes. "This is proof! You'll never be desired that way." These lies have a volume, going up and down. But the 'off switch' button can't be found. During the day, through the night. They become your companion, they won't leave your side. At times you doubt them and start to appeal for Truth. Deep inside, you know they're lies. So you decide to stand up and fight. The battle is difficult and draining. You find yourself desperately seeking for a way out. You just want to run. Keep in mind this battle has already been won. You aren't sure of it, this victory. Yet its just around the bend. You wait and see. Its hard to take comfort in the unknown. Especially when you feel like you're alone. Trust is hard, I understand. But fall into His arms if you can. And remember He knows, He has an Ultimate Plan. Your entire life, it lies in His hands.